He was good looking and he
was kind. From the distance he was speaking to me, as he began to approach me,
he said, “One
day you’re gonna be my wife.”
My initial reaction
was: Yeah right, get this guy away from me. No matter
how mean I was, he stuck around—he just didn’t get the hint. I gave him my
contact. I know I said he was a bit annoying, but I actually enjoyed his
boldness more than my outer appearance and reactions displayed.
Fast forward a few years:
we stayed in touch when I transferred across the states and back. At one point
he asked me to marry him, but I chickened out and stopped talking to him. He
was seven years older than me and he wanted nothing more than to get married. I
must say I wanted to get married too, but somehow, someway, God allowed me not
to feel at peace. That and I was stuck on the fact that he said, “I think we’d
have fun together.”
After a few more years, we
started to see each other again. He said, “I thought we would have already been
together by now.” This time around I was in transition, I was deciding to go
back to school to cultivate the vision that God had placed in my heart. While I
was starting this new chapter, we were ending the old. It was a very hard
decision for me, as he was such a good guy, kind, a provider, and very
attentive. Overall, he knew me. I was so comfortable with him, I told him my
silly jokes and daily stories and he listened.
But
on the same token, the dreams of which I told him—he believed in. However, I
could tell it was something he didn’t want for himself.
You see, he had a vision
for his life and it didn’t match up to where I was going, and vice-versa. Early on in our unofficial relationship he said,
“Maybe I should just go to the hood and get a girl who wants to be a
stay-at-home wife.” Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with being a
stay-at-home wife (or being from the hood), as there is a season for
everything. However, I didn’t feel as though that season was where God had me.
And, there were other things that didn’t sit well with me as well. If I would
have stayed, I would have had to conform to what he wanted; eventually not
going towards the land that God was promising me.
“I would have been settling to
be everything for someone else, but losing all that God had placed in me.”
That semester on through
the entirety of the program, I continued to work on what God had called me to
even though I was heartbroken. I continued to walk forward, even when it was me
having to leave behind what I thought my future was supposed to look like.
Although our directions split and it was very heartbreaking, I know that God
has someone better for me where He is calling me to go.
“If God is calling you to do
something, expect that sometimes God will also cause you to say goodbye to
those who may not be good for you in the seasons to come.”
Ladies, the guy may be
amazing, yet amazing for someone else. He may be very vision-oriented, yet be
unequally yoked. God is an all-seeing God, who knows everything—He is Alpha and
Omega, the beginning and the end. If you are in that season, trust and surrender
to what God is trying to do in that season. Count it as a blessing, let go and
trust God as you are reaching an unknown season.
By Sasha
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